Thursday, January 28, 2016

hello world.

It's been a minute, and of course, a lot has been on my mind. I had the chance to spend sometime alone today just taking it easy and playing guitar. This is an outlet of mine that I don't do nearly enough, but when I do, it gets me thinking about life. haha.. what is it about music that makes you do that? 

I started thinking about my path and where I have come. I thought about friends and loved ones. And the world. Where I have come in the last few months... I could not be more grateful. The whole experience of ups and downs has proven to me even more that God is real and answers prayers. He knows FAR more than me and He see's the bigger picture even when I can't. The strength and confidence He has helped me develop is something I never thought would be possible. I feel like I have had to completely re-identify myself and what my true value is. I no longer have school and dance to define me, and now its just me:) Who am I and what can I give? ...This "after college" process has not been easy, but I have gained a better understanding of who I am and what I want. In so many ways God has helped me accomplish "my impossible" and He continues to do so. I know that I could not go a single day without Him. 

So if you are going through something really hard and you feel like you are in a wave that just keeps crashing down on you.... please don't give up! He is there and peace will come. These moments don't last forever-- I have gained a lot of strength in that statement when I am going through a moment of anxiety or deep sadness. I KNOW from past experience...past peaceful moments...that this one too will pass. God has helped me see ME and what I'm capable of. I am constantly praying for COURAGE not to give up, unshakable FAITH, and DISCERNMENT... and God is listening. Whatever your hiccup, there is HOPE. 

I hope that my friends can read this and know that they are extraordinary and powerful. That it is okay to be right where they are...and that not everything has to be figured out right now. WE ARE SO HARD ON OURSELVES and that needs to stop. We need to find the simplicity, the beauty, the gratitude, and the joy in our everyday. Small moments of gratitude and reflection help us see the bigger picture and assess our true values. 

With God, the impossible is possible. I'm seeing it in my own life.